Sing Until Your Lungs Give Out - Fickitty thinger: Palmistry
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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 09:45 am
Fickitty thinger: Palmistry

Palmistry
by Mary
Summary: Perhaps this is what reading is like, for people who've done it all their lives.
Notes: set after Teen Titans 29.


She likes sneaking into Tim's house. He calls it his Robin's Nest. Cass thinks that might've made Stephanie smile, so now it makes her smile. She steals food from his fridge and uses up his hot water. It comforts her to know that someone can tell when she's been in a place.

He's sprawled on his couch, still wearing the lower half of his costume, his chest bare. He's losing weight, and Cass has a momentary fear that she hasn't left him enough food after her raids. But money is not a concern for either of them, and she knows she is not the one to blame for the diminishment of him.

The new bruises are worse than usual. Tim's eye -- and it's only now that Cass notices that his mask is removed, too -- is dark and swollen, his cheek red and puffed. There are splits on his lip, purpled splotches on his arms, and scratches on his chin and throat.

He has, as Alfred might say, been put through the wringer.

Cass reaches out and turns Tim's head carefully, lightly. He doesn't wake, but breathes against her palm and murmurs something too quiet to hear.

She glares, hard, at the injuries. Perhaps this is what reading is like, for people who've done it all their lives. She can look at the bruises and watch the story unfold.

She sees I hate you I hate you I hate you and Does he love you and Tell me I was as good as you, tell me they remember and You aren't enough and You will get him killed and then I will have to kill you.

Cass kisses Tim's forehead and drapes a blanket over him. Then she goes to catch a train to Gotham.

The city doesn't feel like home anymore, even as it's the most familiar place she's ever been, and that makes Cass sad in a way she doesn't have the words for. There must be words for it, after all. The feeling is too big for there not to be.

He's taking money off a streetwalker when Cass finds him. No mask on his face, except for the one that only she can see. He tells lies with his body.

"A pimp. How noble," she says. The hooker takes a long look at her, at the cowl and the cape and the black kevlar, and pats him on the arm.

"Looks like you got company. See you, Jay. Stay out of trouble."

"You too," he says, and pecks her on the cheek. Cass can see him say to her This city is evil. Be harder than it. Be safe.

When they're alone, he says with words "So, you must be... no, wait, don't tell me... Bondage Girl, right?"

"Batgirl." She knows he knows already, but she wants to name herself nonetheless.

He shifts, and she sees him whisper, like a heartbreak, Joker shot her in the spine and then he took pictures and it was like her light went out and I've seen pictures of her now and she looks happy again but the old light is still missing.

Then, as if remembering she's there, he shifts again, and now he's saying, viciously, How can you let Black Mask be alive after what he did, when Stephanie is dead and won't ever make you laugh again. It makes Cass stumble, throws her off her game, but then she looks harder and sees that she's misread him.

He's saying How can Bruce have let the Joker live?

"You need us to be better than you were," she says calmly, remembering her purpose for finding him. "I am."

He smirks. "Are you now?"

"Yes," she answers, and attacks.

He's very good. Trained by the best. He's not completely expecting it, but she only gets two strikes in before he's blocking and parrying her. She swoops low, then jumps high, but he's rarely more than a step behind her.

He kicks her thigh, and she sees him saying We could have been allies.

She jabs his armpit and answers Never too late.

His knuckles glance off the chin of her cowl. I'm a killer.

Her knee hits his stomach. Killers can change.

He tries to slam her down against the pavement. I need you to love him best.

Her fingers find the pressure point on his jaw, and press. I do.

His weight falls atop her as he blacks out, and she shoves him off with a breathless grunt. Unconscious, his face looks smooth and tired. Cass touches his cheek, and wonders what will happen next.

Then she sits down, and waits for someone to come take care of him.

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danachan
danachan
Dana
Sat, Nov. 12th, 2005 10:54 pm (UTC)

I really like this. It's shiny. Like, a lot.

*thumbs up* *sparkles!*


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Sat, Nov. 12th, 2005 11:00 pm (UTC)

Thankyou. :D

And thanks for the other comment, too. I blame extreme exhaustion/stress. *sparkles for you*


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rubynye
rubynye
rubynye
Sat, Nov. 12th, 2005 11:02 pm (UTC)

One of the many wonderful things about this story is just how good Cass is in her native language.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:51 am (UTC)

She's a sharp cookie, that one.


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brown_betty
brown_betty
Betty
Sat, Nov. 12th, 2005 11:05 pm (UTC)

I love Cass' ability to understand from a distance. She can feel these things without being injured by them. Shiny!


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:51 am (UTC)

Thanks! :D


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cruelest_month
cruelest_month
April
Sat, Nov. 12th, 2005 11:07 pm (UTC)

So wonderfully them. And so wonderful to read after a crappy day at work. *pets unconscious Jason*


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:51 am (UTC)

Wheee! I'm glad you liked.


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lomedet
lomedet
another d**m learning experience
Sat, Nov. 12th, 2005 11:21 pm (UTC)

I love the way you write Cass - it's just so *her*.

and the Cass-and-Tim friendship is one of my favorite things about the last year or so of DC canon.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:50 am (UTC)

Thankyou so much, that's a great compliment.


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thete1
thete1
Dammit, Clark's penis is going in *something*.
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 12:24 am (UTC)

They're all just so damned *issue*-ridden. *siiigh* And... damn you for working my weakness for Cass+Jason! Curse yooouuuu!

*sigh*

*sigh*


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:50 am (UTC)

*is cursed*

*uses terrifying Alex Ross icon just for you*


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thete1
thete1
Dammit, Clark's penis is going in *something*.
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:54 am (UTC)

*FLEES*

(And of course Alex Ross drawing Jason feels less weird to me than Ross drawing nearly anyone else in the DCU. Jason is HUMAN...)

ALSO COME PLAY BITCH


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ficbyzee
ficbyzee
most amazing damaged cupcake ever
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 12:52 am (UTC)

Oh Cass Cass Cass, and Jason Jason Jason. *sniff* So much woobie! I loved this, especially the last line.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:50 am (UTC)

I think that means I WIN! Yay!


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silensy
silensy
Love what's there. Love it.
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 02:34 am (UTC)

Cass! and Jay!! Love!!

*this incoherency brought to you by excedrin migraine and t00by bat-love*


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:50 am (UTC)

Wheeee! *sparkles*


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vassilissa
vassilissa
Vass
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 06:59 am (UTC)

I love this. Particularly when Cass misheard him. It made me try to juggle the translation into a form that meant both those things.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:49 am (UTC)

Thankyou. :D


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eggblue
eggblue
eggblue
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 07:18 am (UTC)

I haven't been on LJ in forever, but I found this and I love this. Jason is visually empathic like Cass is, of course, and so very physical. They're nothing but strength. Oh, and your characterization of Red Hood is dead-on right, as always.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:49 am (UTC)

Thanks so much. And it's good to see you around again!


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emmykins
emmykins
emmykins
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 07:28 am (UTC)

Aww... I (heart) Cass and Jay.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:47 am (UTC)

Meee toooo.


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emmykins
emmykins
emmykins
Thu, Nov. 17th, 2005 09:27 pm (UTC)

And I swear, this is what made me dream Jay/Cass porn last night.

That and reading dirty stories til I went to bed.


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jamjar
jamjar
jamjar
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 09:04 am (UTC)

I really like this. The idea of Cass effectively sorting it out, that she's the one most qualified to, really works. Excellent use of her reading him as well, especially when she misreads and then corrects herself.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:45 am (UTC)

Thankyou. :D :D


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askmehow
askmehow
Semicolon enabler
Sun, Nov. 13th, 2005 07:52 pm (UTC)

Aww, Cass! And Jason! Bats working out their issues (or not), the only way they know how.

Loved how, even though the fic primarily deals with Cass and Jay, there's still the shadow of Bats past and present. Brilliant fic.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 01:45 am (UTC)

Thanks so much. And might I say that is a fabulous icon, hee. ;)


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petronelle
petronelle
Petra
Tue, Nov. 15th, 2005 11:09 am (UTC)

I love how Batgirl is so many different people, and Jason is caught up in it all even though he doesn't *know* enough.


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sharpest_rose
sharpest_rose
Isn't moral anarchy kind of the point?
Mon, Nov. 21st, 2005 01:26 pm (UTC)

Thanks! And sorry about the lateness of this reply, I'm catching up. :)


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